The Deep End

I don't know why its gotten hard to sleep at night Bouncing off the walls and out my mind Searching for something that I'll never find I thought that I was a strong woman But when it was time to leave, I didn't go I stayed 'til I was drowning in the shallow Too afraid to jump into the deep end I don't know why I bother with the music It's not like anybody's listening I may as well be whispering I always did what I was supposed to do I read the books, I went to school But I'm still stuck inside the wading pool Too afraid to jump into the deep end If there's something bigger out there I need you to hear my prayer I've got nothing to relate to Feels like I've been stranded here A thousand years I remind myself of my father Self destructive with a stubborn streak Rage that could kill if I dared to speak I am also my mother's daughter With bad luck, but good intentions Dreams that I can't bear to mention Too afraid to jump into the deep end