healing in reverse

My life's been stuck on repeat Since July 15th All I think is you Do you know the ways you have hurt me? You think I'm crazy But what are you? Another stupid song, thought writing had done its job But maybe it just hurt you I never meant to I have to make excuses Find what happened and trace it back to me I'm counting sheep She's got me healing in reverse Thought I had no tears left for you But what I put you through has got me tracing all the steps I know the ways I have hurt you, too There's a balance that is so removed And it's not finished yet It might be you Are all I have To know I'm not pretending And I know I'm not pretending, but It might be you You're all I have The only concrete evidence To know she's who she says she is, yeah It's bigger than you But it seems to me that I always lose When I say how I feel it's evil But I don't trust myself if I'm not a billion people No, it's not a billion people It's only you It's only you Healing in reverse I've found someone who makes me happy And I'm going to allow myself to fall You wreck the world by looking at me I'm finished with it all I don't know why you ask me to clear the air Then set it all on fire Now I'm emotional over dead girl on a pedestal I don't want you to waste my time You know I overanalyze It makes sense, you've got me healing in reverse But it's temporary, healing in reverse I'm not gonna say that I won't feel this way Again, six months down the line But if I do, it'll be on me 'Cause I know that she can take it in its time