BETWEEN THE LINES

22 feels like forever Thought I would change for the better But I go up and down, I've seen So many tears and bloody sleeves The pain, it came and went and then I laid and dreamt of death again Where's god? Where's god? Please save me cause it hurts, god, it hurts, god But this ain't even the first time Ain't even the worst time Every time I'm up I think that this finally gon work I hope too much just to revert and say this ain't gon work I diminish my worth I wanna leave this earth, god Tell me what I should do Tell me what you would do Please just tell me something I'm convinced that I'm nothing I just wanna smile too Wanna stay a while to See my family proud dude God it's such a shame that I just dream of getting out soon I dreamt the dream, I went too deep, I read between the lines I dreamt to be forever free from every lie I'll never be the best of me, I've yet to be fine I long to leave reality and the race against time I dream my dream, I don't need to sleep All these thoughts in my head, every one I keep Holding onto my seat, don't know what I seek Can't fall on my knees and I wanna believe That I'm onto at least a part of the scene Where all of the things all are where they need to be Sometimes I think that I'm all too weak To stand, yeah I got two feet But I want two wings, wanna fly away But my soul want more, took all I could take If I stayed one more, I would honestly break Every day that I wake I pray shit'll change For me, for them, forever I wish that they would never die Living out these memories but only few we memorize I see their pain and feel it too Seeking out a different view Demons always creeping, don't believe me till they eat at you I just wanna feel right This shit ain't a real life Materialism, imprisonments just to steal light And I ain't got much left, but they can't take my soul And I ain't got none here, I wanna take control I wanna take my flight, but don't know where to go So if I take my life, please don't stop the show now I dreamt the dream, I went too deep, I read between the lines I dreamt to be forever free from every lie I'll never be the best of me, I've yet to be fine I long to leave reality and the race against time