Counting

How did it feel not even real when you're gone My momma got ill but feel you wasn't wrong How can I count on you when you got something else to do This apart of my environment kindergarten through 6th grade I had a lot I couldn't hid it but something ain't sit right with me I think I had ran out of options either I cried or I tried to get my get back I was lowkey killing myself I couldn't heal that pain waking up everyday like damn I can't feel my face All it did was tear me down but you started with me Playing games on me now like you're heart was in it(There ain't love in here) Tryna cut my losses but other shit got caught up in the way Back to bad feelings can I catch a break Time after time it's okay When it's all done it won't mean nothing I know you tired of running yo problems coming How did it feel not even real when you're gone My momma got ill but feel you wasn't wrong How can I count on you when you got something else to do How did it feel not even real when you're gone My momma got ill but feel you wasn't wrong How can I count on you when you got something else to do Numbers don't mean squat if you can't hit em Long live my brothers jumping out those buildings How was you only hurting this year one phone call to make em disappear Droptop roof with no ceiling How you fall in love with no feeling Cause I'm toxic with no logic cold feet oh wait no way I been feeling pain all day Don't try to tell me how to feel popping Advils just to heal It don't make it no better I swear it's been a long long long time thinking bout when I met here Child support got me losing my paychecks Windows tinted politicking while sipping some lean on a racetrack It's been hard all this year but I really thank god for what he did love (Every blessing came from above) So that's the reason why I'm counting on you How did it feel not even real when you're gone My momma got ill but feel you wasn't wrong How can I count on you when you got something else to do