Shaking Again

I didn't Want to leave you like that But if I didn't I would be dead by now I did really want you to stay, I couldn't calm down Dying in my room 'till it's away Shaking again now How did you just want me to stay When I was on the ground I just left you alone in you pain Wanna lie underground I could not stand the pain I felt when my head started to f*ck with me again I wanted to stay but well I left now Shaking in my bed but i'm okay, now But you really wanted me to stay, while While I was getting fucking depressed, how ? My anxiety drowned our love I tried to save it But it was too late but I dove In without caring Maybe now I won't go back out I just stopped swimming I just let myself going down But now i'm drowning Leave me please be happier With someone that truly deserves you I did really want you to stay I couldn't calm down Now that i'm alone and you're away I feel so bad now I just really wish for you the best While i'm loosing my mind Loneliness is getting to my chest I feel like I have died I could not stand the pain I felt when my head started to f*ck with me again I wanted to stay but well I left now Shaking in my bed but i'm okay, now But you really wanted me to stay, while While I was getting fucking depressed, how ?