Getting Better

I wish that i could pull myself together But I'm so scared of getting better She said she'd help and I said that I'd let her But I'm so scared of getting better I lit a candle today In remembrance of the person I used to be The sweet and awful shit I used to say I'm so sorry you got used to me I'd blame it on the weather As if it even matters I wish that I could pull myself together But I'm so scared of getting better (Getting better, getting better, getting better) She said she'd help and I said that I'd let her But I'm so scared of getting better (Getting better, getting better) I lit a cigarette today to remember the taste of self-pity I'm thinking of leaving this city Cause I can go pretty much anywhere Is it to much to ask For the clothes on the floor and the cups on my desk To just clean up themselves Disappear back on the shelves I'd blame it on the weather As if it even matters I wish that I could pull myself together But I'm so scared of getting better (Getting better, getting better, getting better) She said she'd help and I said that I'd let her But I'm so scared of getting better (Getting better, getting better, getting better) I wish that I could pull myself together But I'm so scared of getting better (Getting better, getting better, getting better) She said she'd help and I said that I'd let her But I'm so scared of getting better (Getting better, getting better) I'm never getting better Getting better Never getting better Getting better Never getting better Getting better In fact I'm getting worse