Loved to Death

I'm just trying to tell you I'm not myself tonight When you reach out I'm pulling away My colors fade to gray The feeling is fleeting Nonverbal, demeaning And I'm your canvas Terse words are revealing They cut through my being The tone's backhanded Everything's horrible all the time Pain is divisible by basic rhymes You'll dig your ditch, never content Til' you fill the hole with my blood and sweat I'm just trying to tell you I'm not myself tonight When you reach out I'm pulling away My colors fade to gray I keep myself pale when you're blood red Cause your lingering lips are always wet You see the devil in the details but I'm broad in your head So paint me with projections and love me to death The fixture is bleeding Framed picture's deceiving The ending's joyful Your hurt is expressive The need so excessive Forever loyal Everything's horrible from all sides When the weight of the world sits on your mind You'll grieve the man I never was 'Cause we're all very wrong about so much I'm just trying to tell you I'm not myself tonight When you reach out I'm pulling away My colors fade to gray I keep myself pale when you're blood red Cause your lingering lips are always wet You see the devil in the details but I'm broad in your head So paint me with projections and love me to death