Ruthless Demo

Would I still feel alive when I touch her Sixteen, let me hit with no rubber To notice me, that's what I thought that love was My pops had three kids, I'm the dumb one And since then ain't shit been the same It's not about her, but it is about pain And all the things I'd do to stop the bleeding in my brain I'm just trying to stay strong for my boy with my name I know he wakes up wake up And lives life without me That's not something that I can say proudly I need a cloud of smoke to surround me Get your hands out of my face when I'm drowning I fucked this one up too, huh Oh did I piss you off Should I pack my bags I didn't hear you out Oh I'm like my dad I feel you pushing me away And if you want to leave then say And let me pick at these scars like a weeping guitar Feel you break through the walls as you lean in my heart Said you'd meet me half way but you feel so far And I just can't live life if I don't know y'all You don't really have to do this You don't need me, I feel useless Am I toxic, am I toothless How you break me, you've been ruthless Naw f*ck Cut it, I'm not fucking with that I'm going to lay down a harmony And you just play it on the piano Yeah, loop it and I'll go in and free style Oo I feel like I'm dying, I'm dying inside To see you my heart keeps breaking on lies Why do you play these games I don't know Why do you play these games oh You got a little attention now you showing off Why do you play with me this way I can't understand these games Why do you play around this way I can't understand, f*ck