Ghost Unity

Is this the pain I've been searching for? Is this the road I'm supposed to follow? I don't know, I don't know I'm holding on to nothing and I can't let go It's hard to face your own abyss A pool of empty words, hidden in the mist I'm reaching out, so close yet so far Will I ever learn how to survive? I am sinked inside And bathed in my withered memories I'm wasting my time But there is nothing that can stop this So this is goodbye To all of my friends, "I really cherish what you've done" Cause when I needed you most You turned your back on me and left me all alone How can you heal the wounds that no one's able to see? Replace the pain with absence and embrace the longing I'm tired of believing you're the helping hand Every time I reached out, you left me buried in the sand I'm just staring at the wastelands All alone, no sound, just my head spinning round and round and round In circles, my medicines are made of white and purple And so I stare - in vain Do I care, in my brain? What I see, what I hear? Blurry you, frantic me So tell me please, what's going on inside my head? I can see the light but it's just too far away So I embrace the night and I let it lead the way This is goodbye To all of my friends, "I really cherish what you've done" Cause when I needed you most You turned your back on me and left me all alone You thought I'm ready to live, you thought you showed me the way I say f*ck you all, try to live my day Breathe in, breathe out, hold tight Take a deep breath and let it out There's so much inside me that I can't let go I should bury the past and bring myself back home But the pain is so restless, so restless I never really knew where I'm supposed to go It's me and my demons when the lights are off I feel them under my skin, but they don't want to go But I know I'm not leaving, not leaving They won the battle, but not the war Breathe in, breathe out, hold tight Let it all go and make things right