Drowning

I feel so lost and Caught up in this life thing, there’s no direction I can’t even breathe, I’m suffocating In my own reality, my heart is torn to pieces Is there anybody out there who can hear me? I am not myself at this moment There’s a monster inside me I’m swimming with the sharks 'Til death do us part I’m sinking even deeper Than I ever thought I’m drowning to the bottom Can’t get my mind of these crazy thoughts I’m drained no I cannot ey No I cannot ey I’m swimming with the sharks 'Til death do us part I’m sinking even deeper Than I ever thought I’m drowning to the bottom Can’t get my mind of these crazy thoughts I’m drained no I cannot ey No I cannot ey 'Til death do us part I’m sinking even deeper Praying to a god that I don't believe in They said I'd find her within But that's where the devil is currently residing And I hope He don't take my life Like he did Bennington Internal stress Societies pressures I'm on the edge standing on the ledge Praying to fly whilst wishing for death The blade cuts through the skin Red blood is nothing compared to the bleeding within Sinister vision eclipsed dream Used to shine so bright But that train of thought has lost its steam When I look in the mirror, I don't see what you see I see a different version of me Behind the visage deeper than the heart Every new day, I have to recharge restart Heart beating like steel drums I can feel the pain seeping through my lungs Smokers chest, I'm choking on my own tongue Every word is critical Social borders controlling the flow of my thoughts, it's cynical Tamed vision, mind trained to think in digital Follow a pattern Thoughts are taught fighting for your approval Your words are bought F*ck your opinion but I wanna be acknowledged Thoughts going back and forth fighting with myself Plus external pressure result You see this candle melt Flame flickering gasping for life Grasping for help losing all hope Losing the light I silently yelp Save me from me Save me from society I'm alone in this mind imprisoned Fighting demons, just tryna break free I’m swimming with the sharks 'Til death do us part I’m sinking even deeper Than I ever thought I’m drowning to the bottom Can’t get my mind of these crazy thoughts I’m drained no I cannot ey No I cannot ey I’m swimming with the sharks 'Til death do us part I’m sinking even deeper Than I ever thought I’m drowning to the bottom Can’t get my mind of these crazy thoughts I’m drained no I cannot ey No I cannot ey