Taxidermy

When did I learn oh when did I learn to twist my face like that Taxidermy bugs the memory of my childhood You taught me that shit like that builds character Get it off my chest my message met with radio silence How much longer 'till I'm safe Stuck in a cycle of my own creation I'm nearing bedrock and I'm deadlock with my own self hatred You love I loathe you give I take It's how we were raised When did I start oh when did I start to lose my grip Saturday morning how I mourn I'm trying You taught me that I'm my own worst enemy Most nights my pillow turns to a shoulder to cry on How much farther 'till I break Stuck in the backseat of my roaming daydream I'm holding on to something long gone and I'm suffocating My lungs are filled with yesterday It's how we were raised There might be something in salvation There might be heaven in the moments in between our waking breaths But if yesterdays keep weighing on me There'll be nothing left You taught me