forthright peak

I'll start talking bout' me, but if i do that a little i'll be considered selfish But if i don't speak at all i'll be considered helpless, but f*ck it Before i go down imma speak my truth before they shut it I will never be seen as the gender that i am, Regardless if I try, I'll still pass as a man If I told my therapist I'm having thoughts again then it will prove I don't deserve freedom yet again Can't pretend if i'm way too honest it bites back I made friends. I'm still lonely as shit. if you don't get it, that's good, you living better than me Nothing ever sits right when you are on a blood spree Most people joke about this so lightly, when i'm fighting That's how i know they've never been in my place Accepting fate, my talent, is a waste, cause I'm giving it away to the dead You say that I deserve the world but I never seem to get an inch of it Don't follow my footsteps. I am a bad example I couldn't handle all the fuckery that puts finger guns to my head I had so many opportunities with different methods I didn't take them cause my hope was still represented This world is to fucking cruel my death will be a benefit They would take the news 5 minutes and forget the shit It's good to know I always have a motherfucking way out (Tic tock tic tock, kill yourself, kill yourself) randos that could save me, I feel your fucking guilt, I wish I met me too, To save my fucking self But instead you knew me too late To help me carry some weight I will barely be remembered as my true self I affected all your lives so I'm sorry, I'm doing you a favor so celebrate and take it as a waiver The train is coming, the bullet's running, the blade is cutting, I am the "wanna be girl" it's really something I hope you'll save the next life that thinks about this after Never mind. It doesn't matter