Creation (ep version)

Will I keep myself from reaching my potential? It's hard to know Depends on the shit I put up or let down Freddy walked across the street, he did a POV About the fucked up life he lived so he could have some people see They never saw Cause they thought he was weird He comes passing me, he says"Wassup" I say"Hello" Conversation flows The next thing you know, I'm trying not to think that he's a creep Then he talks about his situations more deeply to me Then I feel bad for assuming otherwise But he's not wise, he can't keep a job He lost all his family to familicide Then I tell him that"I'm sorry for your loss" And I try not to ask why to be respectful Then it ended there, he walked up to another woman having the same conversation he had with me Why the f*ck is that? Is that coincidence? I try to ignore it, but it bugs me all day With dysphoria because he thought I was something else incorrectly like I did with him Now we're so even Except it tears me up everyday since I was born I talk about it more Then I drive people away Because they don't want to hear too much negativity I hate my fucking body I hate my fucking voice This will hide all my blades in a fucking void That I blame to put myself in It's a huge covenant Then I choose to walk home, sit, and turn on the TV I see the guy I talked to earlier arrested on the news And I think"I literally dodged a bullet out the blue" You never know who you're talking to Heart over speeds I don't wanna see the reality that chose me Ending soon Hoping that happens to Freddy too Not claiming as this world anymore Until I find a better one Nothing will be done Even if I step in uh I protect the journey in the progress like a Tetanus shot I'm still alive That's a typo The font's broken so I'm psycho, and counting real slow To the moment I wake up again Until then I descend, it's part of the plan Meanwhile I face the fucks I give and care before the end I live with the fact that I'm told that I'm doing this for attention So until you believe that death is a punishment For being yourself, shut the f*ck up when you say I'm selfish When you say I'm selfish