False Portal

All the lights are getting dimmer And I don't feel any thinner Cause I don't have a DSLR to make me look any better And my face looks harder now Than it did 2 years ago When did I feel so much older Did I even grow When I closed one door shut Why did I think I'd open another Cause I left everything behind Except the bond between me and my brothers Wanna say that I have changed And I'd hoped it'd be for the better But I still like angsty music And I still prefer gray weather I guess I look better than before Grew out of keeping it all inside And moved on to drugs and parties And the never ending lies When I closed one door shut Why did I think I'd open another Cause I left everything behind Except the bond between me and my brothers Now I sit in the same house That I spent 18 years inside And it doesn't feel any different And I still feel like I'm dying And the cycle never changed And nothing will ever change