Devastation

I wake up dead i don't understand instead I'm at school depressed and alone And somehow I end up too far from home You give me headaches rated 8 I'm falling like an earthquake Don't give me love only to take it away You played with my head and made games You tricked me bad with a clean slate I'm convicted of crimes i didn't commit Your the reason i'm stuck here with all this mental shit Smoking stays longer than you did You think your top shit You steal my money Your not worth me or my family Too much grief and massacre I'll last longer than her father I'll fight to the very end even when i'm dead Take what you want but you can't have my sanity Stop using my name as profanity Free me from this curse ill spill the beat from the verse I love you more than the entire universe You tell me to kill myself give it a rest In 10 seconds I'll already be dead You took too long and for that i give you a sin I'm a kid too scared and traumatized within I'm empty and broken what is the point? Everything's dark except the end of this joint Lately they say they hate the way that i cope Take from the clouds and hang from a rope I've done some things that i can't atone I grab the blade and cut down to the bone In my mind i face resistance Wanna be alone but i hate the distance Honestly i don't know what to think now I know i'm not the best to be around You did me wrong and i can't cope Now i'm stuck here in jail without any hope When i die put me in a coffin Pop 20 pills and nobody stops it When i die don't act like its shocking Gave you all the signs now i'm done talking I guess i gotta go now I feel like a candle about to blow out You leave me alone in this fucked up world I feel like i'm gonna die sooner I take pills because i'm fucked up in the head And now i'm staring at my death bed When i die i know they wont miss me Give them a week and then they will forget me I live for the present not the future or the past Roll up a gram and i wanna relax