ODSP

I find it hard to pick up the phone Remembering the time you told me I'm on my own Took me three years to learn that it was a lie You could have lift this heavy burden that's got me wanting to die but Don't know if I can trust again Won't even tell my friends where exactly I've been I guess I'll carry on just smiling And hope nobody sees the hell that lies within But here we go again With paper work and three hours of processing Come back in three weeks if you hear nothing Only to be told "You sure you ever came in?" Well here I am Stuck all alone in my head again Starting to think that they want me dead Maybe it's just me I know at least I did But it comes back in waves Telling me how much I hate this place Making me feel like I want to just erase Myself from the world and make it all go away I know I'm not alone I know that I'm lucky I've got a place to go But it doesn't take away from pain I know They only mean well but it's time I go Because I'm really struggling To keep it all together at family gatherings Maybe I should just be alone and then I could never hurt anyone I love again Well here I am Stuck all alone in my head again Starting to think that they want me dead But maybe it's just me I know at least I did But they call back again And this time I'll be more prepared than them Gunna play by the rules they try to bend But it doesn't even matter never gonna let them win But It's not for years we'll see Any type of benefit or help that we need Tell me why a home would negate a disease When I can't even work let alone afford to leave