Am I Being Dramatic? (Unfinished Version)

It's been a while since I felt this great But still feel like black spots in my space You know that feeling of existential dread in the back of your head No? Well maybe it's just mine And I get lost in thought so often that reality is getting harder to find And I dissociate for hours at a time While my mind is hard at work creating stories from my hurt But the thing that I'm creating's taking hours from my life Cause I'm isolating myself, don't give many people time Cause any time away from my world is a distraction Ain't a surprise that what I'm attracted to is mostly passion Mostly others are lacking But maybe someday, I will find the balance Tell me one thing Am I being dramatic or does everything feel like it's falling in place Falling in place But baby someday can you tell me the one thing That I want to hear and make me feel like everything is falling in place Falling in place Falling in place I could live a hundred lives never seeing your smile And feel miserable until the one I do You're the light of my current darkness Sending orange lightning bolts directly to my heart with explosions of pink, yellow, and Blue That tear the roof off and expose me to truth Don't know if you'll ever know that these songs are all about you But it don't really matter because I'm writing them anyway I believe that you believe in me And that means more than anything You make me want to try again Cause I can hear you call through the static Even without the drugs, I'm still an addict But maybe someday, I will find the balance Tell me one thing Am I being dramatic or does everything feel like it's falling in place Falling in place But baby someday can you tell me the one thing That I want to hear and make me feel like everything is falling in place Falling in place Falling in place Don't let your world go gray Plant your flowers one seed at a time And watch them grow