Lose It All

'Cause I don't wanna grow up Missin' a piece of my heart that you hold Oh, it's my worst nightmare not lettin' you know That if I ever lose you, I lose it all Why the f*ck does it always feel like I'm about to lose it all Why the f*ck does it always feel like I'm about lose the ball Why the f*ck does it always feel like I'm about to lose it all Why the f*ck does it always feel like I'm about lose the ball How can I hold on when I ain't got nothing hold on to I miss you sky these the times I need hold on to you Real talk I don't know how much more a young nigga can take I don't want to go back to depression my mind going blank Why do I keep saving my life why can't someone come save me for once I don't know how I couldn't get the same love from you when I kept showing up I don't know how I couldn't get the same love from you when I kept showing up How the f*ck am I 21 and I still ain't getting no love Cause I don't wanna grow up Missin' a piece of my heart that you hold Oh, it's my worst nightmare not lettin' you know That if I ever lose you, I lose it all Why the f*ck does it always feel like I'm about to lose it all Why the f*ck it always feel like I'm about lose the ball Why the f*ck does it always feel like I'm about to lose it all Why the f*ck does it always feel like I'm about lose the ball Why the f*ck am I still holding on to a rope that's keep getting cut At times I see how deep the water is and yet I still jump I wish sometimes someone would open the door when I can't use my thumbs How the f*ck you see me struggling with my hands and you ain't open it up Why does it keep feeling like it's another thing after another I just lost my dog , my job, I just lost my grandmother I don't really care about losing, I'm just not trynna lose myself I'm just trynna to make it I'm not trynna end up in hell Losing my mind day by day I'm losing my peace I looked in the mirror I didn't even recognize me I looked in the mirror I didn't even recognize me I guess I could only see what nobody else could see Cause I don't wanna grow up Missin' a piece of my heart that you hold Oh, it's my worst nightmare not lettin' you know That if I ever lose you, I lose it all