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Laying here thinking about the people that I miss Laying here thinking how it all went to shit Praying to a god who didn't grant me a wish That overdose should've had me laying in a ditch But I'm not cause I'm here, readjusting from the fallout My legs of confidence are gone, guess I got to crawl out I want a bad bitch so I can put her ass in timeout I mean it can't hurt to dream Full of pain and I Yeah, and I've been thinking about my pops Thinking about that fateful night when mama had to call the cops Yeah, and I've been thinking how my daddy turned into an op Can't forget the day when I manifested suicidal thoughts Nonstop Yeah I got a genre but that shit ain't no pain rap Yeah I got a scar where I sliced with the blade at I wish I could rewind all the time, let's play it back Bashing me in the street, why the f*ck is he saying that? I think I know the answer cause he said he was down for me Ironic don't you think? cause currently he is downing me Surrounded by people who's covered in the fake energy I listen to my sisters tell me of all their enemies I wish I had an enemy who appeared to me physically I'm tired of my demons that attack me internally My mama said to me, "I can't sleep, boy you worry me" I hate to see her cry, being alive's no concern to me At all Raise walls Hide the pain from the cause I'm worshipping my death as if it were for applause Take a bite out my sanity like the shark from jaws Coughing insecurity, just give me some halls Cough drops Coin toss God, make my heart stop I wish I had the courage to forgive myself for my loss I wish I could get rid of all my failures with some dental floss I wish I wasn't gullible, I'm always double-crossed I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired for real I said it three times and they seem to ignore me still Sitting outside my window seal I see the wooden coffin as I close my eyes Yeah, and I've been thinking about my pops Thinking about that fateful night when mama had to call the cops Yeah, and I've been thinking how my daddy turned into an op Can't forget the day when I manifested suicidal thoughts, nonstop Laying here thinking about the people that I miss Laying here thinking how it all went to shit Praying to a god who didn't grant me a wish That overdose should've had me laying in a ditch But I'm not cause I'm here, readjusting from the fallout My legs of confidence are gone, guess I got to crawl out I want a bad bitch so I can put her ass in timeout I mean it can't hurt to dream Full of pain and I