HOW I FEEL

So many problems in my way, I give my grace to God Who will be there for my grandma, forbid I die tomorrow Tryna runaway from my problems, but I ain't getting far Tryna stay dem, im I'm sleeping in my car I express some of my feelin's, but they still disregard I don't know, I just keep happening, don't know what I'm doing wrong I self love, but there's a difference between being alone Ain't felt this way in a minute, this time I'm choosing love Tell me it's someone else, because I fucked it up Tell me if I'm aware, or I'm the only one It should be hard, I come from broken love inside my home You'll think my life went good, cause, I'm finally happy, Huh? Should've knew that day was lying when they told me they happy, Huh? So many times I went in the car, cause I felt deeply damaged, Huh? I'd probably be somewhere dead if it wasn't for rapping, Huh? How you expect me to have it for you, when I was broke and you had it for me Same ways I want my help when I went to rock, he passed to me They crossed me, I cut him off, now niggas say im actin funny I can't ignore my past, I know how deeply damaged for me I know how deeply damaged for me Tryna act like shit alright, when i know its not Reminiscing of my body, what they did to mine How I'ma switch up on my niggas, man, we ain't have a dime I'm stressed about being rich, but it's gonna take some time I don't cry on the outside, but I'm crying in my mind Somebody said I'd be in love again, I said ain't lyin Same time I'm out last year, I was down bad, bro, just cryin