Disguise My Pain

I disguised my pain with a laugh Had to get all my feelings and get in my bag I'm making some noise and you making me mad Buckle your seatbelt cause my niggas strapped Can't call you fam if you wasn't that granny crib You love me but hurt me I can't understand that shit In yo head you popping but you are irrelevant You ain't got no pape and that shit embarrassing I had to cut you you move like a snake You said that you love me but that shit was fake I want you to change but you stuck in your Ways They want that slide so we loading the Kay's You would not last one day on the block Cause you just chilling and then you hear Shots Now they go the cop I don't got the time like I broke my watch You start to get greedy that's when you get Popped I know I won't change when I'm at the top I know you don't like me but we are not ops You the type to go and tell on the plug You ain't read the book but you wanna judge They want me to fall off but I cannot budge They out to get me but I can get touched I see your hand so just throw in the chips You can't ride this wave unless you got a ship They don't think he strapped but it's on hip In the ring like a beyblade cause I let it rip How you rap about Jail if you never sat You don't wanna slide cause my niggas strapped You wasting my time and I can't get it back My niggas like ref cause they showing they flag Talk about money stop talking about hoes You see the cons while I see the pros I know he can't fight so he got him a pole You just wanna f*ck stop calling my phone You would never believe I did this on my own In a war on myself in a race with my clone Ain't get no handouts I did it on my own Finally seen the real you when your true colors showed God keep on telling me this is my time I'm CP3 cause I stay throwing dimes My niggas cuff like they did a crime I gotta stay focused this bag on my mind You claim that you real but you can't tell the truth He ain't have no love so he started to shoot It started to feel like my life was a loop To deal with the pain I get high or I hoop You stabbed my back so I cannot trust you You don't wanna step cause my nigga might Bust you You played wit my heart so now it's just f*ck you Now looking back I don't know if I love you You Niggas all bark but y'all never bite I got niggas in chains like a gear on a bike I got something to say so I no longer write You did some fake shit so we no longer tight I'm nonchalant cause you left my heart cold I don't understand how to realest one's fold He knew I was special when he made the mold I can't be stopped when I get in that mode You didn't love me and I should've known I'm not looking for love I'm just 20 years old You don't want me to win but you calling me Bro You see I got money you can't call me broke