Afflicted

I fall on my knee's begging please I'm so imperfect I drink and I drug I left you and now I'm hurting Can't find my way back I can't stop Cause I'm addicted I want a hit right now can't help myself lord I am afflicted I wake up devastated my family's in so much pain My wife did everything in her power just to maintain My kids all play with poisonous snakes driven insane I ran away from home for six years to be humane They didn't stand a chance with me taking out everything I couldn't be a father I wasn't a human being I would pray for death but my death just kept on fleeing Visions of my funeral was all that I kept seeing Being a dope fiend was a curse to hope's and dreams How could I be a king I was stealing things from my queen Living like a troll under bridges out of control Rats would scurry off with my last cinnamon roll Mad about a cigarette lighter somebody stole Blankets bedbug infested and in the cold I went to every drug rehab center they had to offer I tried a million times to stop but my thoughts were improper I fall on my knees begging please I'm so imperfect I drink and I drug I left you and now I'm hurting Can't find my way back I can't stop cause I'm addicted I want a hit right now can't help myself lord I'm afflicted I ain't never been good at nothing but bussing raps and cussing Crushing cans puking flushing hugging something disgusting Man I had a plan but my plan plotted against me Taking short cuts bad advice liars convinced me That I was supposed to focus on me myself and I But then I got high I got high I got high Looking back I see all the reasons I shouldn't be here But despite all of the gloom and the smoke I now can see clear Holier than thou's what they started calling me now I survived the wrath of myself wondering how I turned to the almighty and I began To bow And live by every word that proceedeth out of his mouth I'm not talking bout the doctrines some teach inside their churches I'm talking bout the truth in Gods word when you research it If you ain't trying to search then I guess you don't deserve it You gotta look deeper and way below the surface I fall on my knee's begging please I'm so imperfect I drink and I drug I left you and now I'm hurting Can't find my way back I can't stop Cause I'm addicted I want a hit right now can't help myself lord I'm afflicted I can't believe that this is me after everything that I been through Survival isn't simple You are what you get into Been through the school of hard knocks and got all of the credentials I've seen the repercussions and lost part of my mentals but My family's back together all praise go to my father Who listened to my prayers when he shouldn't have even bothered Corruption of my flesh may have left me another saga Congestive heart failure glaucoma and the whole rasta But I'm not the same drug addict drunk strung out on sorrow Be careful who you put down he might be up tomorrow It's not about me because God gives me the power To help somebody else in this pit being devoured You can stop smoking You can stop drinking You can stop drugging It don't matter what you're thinking Put it in his hands and watch your ship stop sinking The truth will set you free better than Abraham Lincoln I fall on my knee's begging please I'm so imperfect I drink and I drug I left you and now I'm hurting Can't find my way back I can't stop Cause I'm addicted I want a hit right now can't help myself lord I'm afflicted I fall on my knee's begging please I'm so imperfect I drink and I drug I left you and now I'm hurting Can't find my way back I can't stop Cause I'm addicted I want a hit right now can't help myself lord I'm afflicted I fall on my knee's begging please I'm so imperfect I drink and I drug I left you and now I'm hurting Can't find my way back I can't stop Cause I'm addicted I want a hit right now can't help myself lord I'm afflicted