Distraction Interlude

I know I'm no good for you If you wanna put me down and now your happy well then good for you But I always stood for you They wanna talk about was I trippin cuz I stood for you When I used to look for you Searching through the crowd Nothing different it was only you Cuz my brain it told me too Search for everything that you had when you weren't lonely ooh What am I supposed to do Can't go back to drugs So I'm only holding on to you I try to stay on the move Sometimes I get caught up and it feels like my minds running loose Wish I didn't have to choose Wish that I could forget about you quit thinking bout a noose Don't get it twisted I had these thoughts before you ever had come through You were distraction Though I wish it wasn't true you never took the pain away Get back to subtracting I cherished all the memories I catch myself still laughing It was bound to happen I really hope I save myself before take up action Burning can't be crashing I keep trynna fly I hope this isn't everlasting Nah Really I guess that's it I walk my shit I talk no shit I'm really not a savage I don't get why I get put on a pedestal when I just feel so average Everything is fun and games I'm sick of all the antics All this pressure on my back I try hard not to panic When I feel everything falls flat I try not to get manic I been scared manifest my thoughts always get negative I'm scared to live not scared to die I'm scared of what's after life Is there something waiting for me Or is this a waste of time Have I crossed the line But who's line was drawn Dealing with after thoughts If I leave is my soul to rot I'd rather not Think about the pain today I need new distractions Don't think it will fade away Give me a distraction I'm so sick and tired what's the point of all this anyway Got nothing more to say today just give me a distraction