someday

I stopped weeding the garden Started shaving my head I stopped holding my body Let it hold me instead I stopped writing you letters that you'll never read Stopped wondering if you're remembering me I'm not who you knew anyways I've been big and small and big and small again I've been a baby a woman and then a kid again I am more than the storms that I've weathered I am beyond the bounds of your gaze Underneath I believe there is someone And I'll keep them safe A month since Atlanta Sometimes it feels like a day Oh my sisters I wonder Can you hear me calling your names Oh I wish you could tell me your stories Oh I wish I could carry your pain I find myself calling my mother with nothing to say I've been big and small and big and small again I've been a baby a woman and then a kid again I was never the names that they gave me I am shedding the skins of my shame Underneath I believe there is someone And I'll keep them safe Underneath I believe I am someone And I'll meet them someday