Alone

If it never mattered did it ever happen? If so then why is it grafted into my heart beat Picked up by a harpy just to be dropped I don't say all this for you to feel bad for me Dad I want you to come back for me I know that you never will I guess I'm better still I don't smoke alone no more I don't do coke alone no more I don't pop pills alone no more I did it all alone for sure I did it all alone for sure Alone, I did it all alone With nowhere else to go Trauma tryna get past it If that don't work Then go get plastered Down at the bar with a couple of friends Till they leave town Then an impending break down Coming your way I know that pain I feel it like like every day I know what it's like to feel alone Learned that pain many moons ago Many suns ago Many rotations ago I know what it's like to hide in the shadows when you're feeling anxious And bastardized for all your actions Got you wishing you just kept on masking Got you asking why you was just made this way I don't smoke alone no more I don't do coke alone no more I don't pop pills alone no more I did it all alone for sure I did it all alone for sure Alone, I did it all alone With nowhere else to go Thrown head first in the deep end They don't get it but that depends I can't explain it Use my words to paint it Maybe they'll listen when I'm dead Maybe that's the best I'll ever get That's worrisome Take my pain and bury it some Down as deep as it goes Down in the basement Life is dangerous I'm feeling anxious But I'm sure that I can take this Blessed by demons Cursed with a halo I don't think I'm destined for where they go It won't change over night like faygo Let it go, let it go I still feel so alone