Changed

I always see things Upside, upside down I don't trust us to turn this ship around I always see things Think that I'm fine I think I'm out of my fucking mind Will it come back with fucking time? Don't really know what the f*ck I want Don't really know what the f*ck I'm on Used to rap over beats by beats by con Damn how far have I come it's been too long Now I'm on a beat by Farber Changed my haircut changed by barber Am I that different these days? Is my music better? Then why aren't I paid? Least my dick works so I get laid Damn, I guess more has changed Then I ever gave credit to But I think it might be due But if that means forgiving them Nah f*ck that f*ck them too Still remember the jokes Just wanted love like joe from you Only thing left to do is leave this town Burn these memories to ash right now Then maybe I won't be so damn upside down Kill the man I used to be Cut my leash Set me free From the winter snow to the summer breeze I ain't coming back I left my keys I can't handle it when you beg so please Let me be the man I think that I'm supposed to be Changing is hard I know Please just let me go, let me go Turn this ship around I always see things Fell in love and then I lost it Forgot how to write that topic But it's only right Made her cry too many nights She felt so much while I felt so little Take it a step at a time my shrink reminds me But it's hard not to get impatient I relapsed and now I'm faded Surprised that I'm not dead High as f*ck while I pick up the pen Falling back into older habits If I see it then I need to have it I need to grab it Got some trauma crack some jokes so I'm still laughing If I'm truthful I'm still practicing some honesty I owe some fucking apologies I'm still that old stupid kid Skipping meals High on fields Damn drug deals Pills have fucked up all my feels But I'm fine I guess Pills help me with all my stress Pressure closes up my throat I need help to breathe Sorry baby I had to leave Please don't beg Get off your knees I don't know who the f*ck I am They're gunna say what they're gunna say Like QU4DE has gone insane I'm breaking down all of my pain At least I survived another day Guess I've got some more to change