Golden

Is this a dream Is everything inside my head Is this a dream Am I alive or am I dead I'm just worried that when you leave you'll mean it this time I've come to realize that I'm just a consolation prize I wish I could live inside your perfect blue eyes or better yet your mind Let me kill your monsters and all your demons Wish that when I said I love you you understood the meaning Before you I was grieving the feelings that never was I'm alone and it was the same before you came along You just showed me the way I was living was wrong Wish that I could say all this without having to write a song But f*ck it I guess, hope you listen whilst hitting your bong Is this a dream Am I alive or am I dead I was like an old toy that was thrown away One that they don't wanna play A noise they would rather drown out Then you came around Way that you saw me as golden Way that I felt I was chosen Way that you took my heart after it was so frozen Still feeling broken Don't really understand Always putting pressure on myself Just the man I am I don't think I'll ever change I'm scared of my rage Know that this scares you too Scares me how much I fucking love you Am I alive or am I dead Am I in heaven or hell Scared that you'll break my heart But you'll keep the pieces and I'll never tell