my tainted relations

You cut the line too short Never able to reach my goal I've lost all control Appearances are shallow Hiding in the shadows If I cannot find a place to be Then I'll be lost at sea Bring me back my home, my home Cause justifying my emotions is long gone Pushing me out till I'm alone, I'm alone Finding the light when there's no dawn Pain Came to me like a friend Rain Doesn't wash away I'm drinking sorrows like champagne Drawing the curtains from where I stand It wasn't planned But I cannot stand this pain I face everyday and it's to the point I wish someone would just grab my own hand Wake me up from this nightmare Wake me up from this fever dream It seems so real And it's real Lost my inhibitions Stuck in my positions Panic attacks pull me back without my permission Impossible to fight back When it's fading to black S.O.S, save me cause I'm a wreck I'm in the dark Someone save me It is so stark I'm on my knees Can you hear me? Slowly slipping I cannot see I am quitting