A Win Is A Win

I lost things I tried to hold on Patience keeping it at 10 toes I don't wanna lose(God) I don't wanna lose control I don't wanna lose I don't wanna lose control(I can't help myself) I don't wanna lose I don't wanna lose control Ask about my kid and all I give is that boy getting grown It's personal to me to give you what I think alone I feel I've been stripped and manipulated in many ways I don't see therapist Cause all I pray is better days Fine days, relationship problems cause other people Fine days, me and momma fighting off the curses that the family gave us Why we can't be a unit? This like the coldest shit that'll turn a normal man Into a gun and use it My uncle kept me humble now I'm praying to him Like he was Jesus Gods work you got a mouth, so use it Beating up myself like I'm the blame for all encounters Looked in the mirror name shaming, man what a fuckin coward You gotta get yourself together Nigga, F*ck it, leave em They thought I left before, but this time here's the fuckin sequel They thought I left before but I just let it cool We got different views I've signed the sheet of your release Now feel so free to move A win is a win I keep winning yeah I can't lose here Stressed myself to losing hair Losing everything I touched Feeling like I've been corrupted and no body could give a f*ck Going to the gym to ball Recording pointless music tryna please a few people That would never listened to it all In the gym I'm working chest legs and tighten core muscles to have a different summer that I've had in many years Dawg I just put investments that'll blow my whole career dawg Now I'm frontier dawg Jet-Lear gear dawg I can't even look into a face that seem familiar Without having such a rush of anxiety and some fears dawg That's awareness tryna warn that's finished nigga There ain't no stop sign, but there's these visions nigga Yeah, I said You don't know me by the past 6 months A lot of things changed up I needed help for once No one dared stepped up That water filled my lungs I fought a fight to stay alive and there I am hold up