Pain.

Lucid am I dreaming All this pain it's hitting my chest All these problems I cannot rest Can't solve them I'm feeling depressed Being defeated that shit ain't the best Taking the blame that shit is domest Asking god why I'm not dead This money ain't shit I don't care about checks I'm just a quiet kid that's fighting my head It's all your fault quan that's what you get I Can't trust these dumb ass niggas I'm laying low (Yeah) And I'm putting my heart in the music I'm losing my soul (Yeah) And I'm going far away I'm going ghost (Yeah) And I lived my whole life being alone (Yeah) I lived my life like this being hurt and being pissed (Yeah,yeah yeah And I am making a list about how my life is shit (Yeah,yeah yeah) I'm at my breaking point I just want to end all of this (Yeah yeah yeah yeah) I got one more thing to say the end is all I wish (Yeah yeah yeah yeah) I think I had enough of this shit I'm not even gonna bluff all this pain just hit It's hurting all my guts I feel so sick No way this happening is this how it's gonna end I know that I'm a failure I'm a disappointment (Failure) I wish that it will all get better but it's just pointless (Failure) Ima write a letter deathsquad ima join it Counting all this cheddar but all this shit pointless