I Should've Been a Painter

This song goes out to the twenty odd girls who broke my heart We were never together but somehow we've still grown apart Without hesitation I'm hitting them up again And in my aspirations I can only picture them It's so easy to think yet I can't understand anything at all Put in so much time just to be seen as unremarkable And I hate the feeling but I just can't seem to live without it But if this isn't love then how come I always feel like shit? I'd like to make a declaration as an artist if I could be so bold Well we are not as young as we have been told Can't get out the way of my own pretension I'm up on this stage begging for your attention Cause I sure as hell won't get it from her For the rest of my life I never wanna see a girl again And with all my spare time I'd like to rewind and open up old wounds caused by them The energy that fuels me is the same that has me wishing for release I should've been a painter then everybody coulda hated me in peace Yeah Yeah Yeah yeah yeah I've tried doing nothing and I've tried giving everything I've got I wanna be fulfilled but loneliness really hits the spot When every hand you've shaken and every mouth you've kissed Has gotta be better off than this To step outside and realize You can't neatly organize People inside your own little worldview This is not the way life was meant to be lived And I know this all to be true That don't mean I've accepted it Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh