Modern Junkie

I get a shooting pain from the tip of my finger Up through my forearm all the way to my shoulder I feel it constantly in times of stress and anxiety But the pain always fades when you smile at me Two months ago My life was better than it's ever been And I'm not sure what's changed But everything has caved in Maybe these days I'd like to think I'm a little better But I'd still throw my life away for five seconds of pleasure Now my face needs a shave and my hair needs a cut So I can look my best when I f*ck everything up Oh Oh It's melting your brain So it can live in your head Replacing ambitions With feelings of dread It's melting your brain So it can live in your head Replacing ambitions With feelings of dread I've seen more debauchery and been more depraved Than any man in history before 1998 Then she finds herself out on a boat With a man who abuses her to help himself cope Where the sea is calm but the waters are rough Achieving levels of intimacy that I could only dream of Oh Oh It's melting your brain So it can live in your head Replacing ambitions With feelings of dread It's melting your brain So it can live in your head Replacing ambitions With feelings of dread Oh I want to believe in Everything happening for a reason But everything I feel has been felt before And every thought's already been put into words And even moving forward, I feel directionless Lying on the floor wondering how to get out of this Cause I'm sick of living like I've got no ambition And wasting my life trying to make a decision It's melting your brain So it can live in your head Replacing ambitions With feelings of dread It's melting your brain So it can live in your head Replacing ambitions With feelings of dread It's melting your brain So it can live in your head Replacing ambitions With feelings of dread It's melting your brain So it can live in your head Replacing ambitions With feelings of dread