THE EDGE

Melancholic, I'm too deep in my sorrow I do it to myself but he'd make it harder Sometimes I find it hard to breathe with my eyes closed And lately I can't even think, where'd my mind go? I don't know where it went And I been the edge So I'ma put up my defense I been feeling so pent up That I can't even reflect And I've kept up my head So long I forgot the reason It's a reflex And now I aint got no friends I aint got shit to my name Swear I'll never see the end I swear that it's all the same I wish that I could pretend That I had fucking amnesia Or could feel love again In any part of my being Backstabbed, and I still feel the edge Back track, do it over again I can't get it out of my head I can't get it out of my head Tear ducts all dried up and abused I'm stuck, and there's no cutting loose No luck, swear to god there's no use Melancholic, I'm too deep in my sorrow I do it to myself but she'd make it harder Sometimes I find it hard to breathe with my eyes closed And lately I can't even think, where'd my mind go? I don't know where I went And I been the edge So I'ma put up my defense I been feeling so pent up That I can't even reflect And I've kept up my head So long I forgot the reason It's a refle- Knock me off my balance Bitch, I have none I can't find my grounding I can't stand up I'm so fucking calloused I'm so damn numb Don't comment on that story, and don't make that post Don't speak to anybody, they can't ever know My face ID can't recognize me through the tears And I hate what I see when I look in the mirror So fucking naive To think that you are unbreakable Bitch, roll up your sleeve Because your heart is too hatable Been so fucking long Forever feels like a while now My face in a cloth I desperately try to cry out Wish I was anyone else Anyone but myself Wish I could just fucking leave But I can't ever get help My wounds will never heal, each day I bleed out And I can't lift my arms, I'll never reach out