You did everything

You're alive Looking up and down halls you'll surely be calling your home Give it time You feel trapped in these walls, but quite soon now they'll feel like your own It's okay to be scared, the world's coming at you so hard There's a place for you here, just be true, and follow your heart Playing cards Of the acts and behaviors acceptable for me to do Hold my guard They'll think highly of me and I'll be well achieved when I'm through Every day of my life I've been clutching this ache in my gut Glory pacing the eyes of the people I know and I love I wanna be just like everyone I wanna break in these shoes I wanna be fearless I wanna be good as new These strange hands on your body, that tear it apart And you're bringing it on with these pings in your heart And you'll shove your throat down and stay silent But you looked in the mirror and you sighed again You don't wanna grow up You don't wanna feel like this at all You just wanna curl up In an indestructible ball When I'm older, I'll see I'll become what I'm meant to be When I can't stand the change I'll hold on to my faith And every time that I speak Someone else comes out So I'm letting him talk And I'm shutting my mouth And I'm looking so proud As I get through my lines And the stage lights are beaming And the collar's too tight There's no pill you can't swallow Or a pain you can't stomach You keep tasting that malice You keep saying you love it But then there comes a point Where you can't hold it anymore You start spilling your guts All over the floor Don't wanna be seen by anyone I wish they'd all look away It's not okay to be like this I still feel it all the same I just wish I was beautiful (I just wish I was beautiful) I'd do so much to be beautiful (They don't want me to be beautiful) Just please let me be beautiful (God why can't I be beautiful?) I just wish I was beautiful They keep telling me to play my part They keep saying it's all for a reason If this really is just the way things are Why the hell is nobody screaming? No dam could stop this river No gag could muffle the shrieks The path they carved him into for so long You did everything You feel the mask as it's slipping The seal is breaking apart It's peeling off until you cannot hide From the beat of your heart When the rain comes pouring I'll celebrate it's elegance When I'm older, which I'll be I'll be thanking myself for this Show me your horrors, and I will survive I was a corpse, now I am alive