Ducked Off Freestyle

Im ducked off smoking with bad bitches around me Still tryna smile through the sorrow surrounds me Truth be told you can go for real Ian hounding Sometimes I feel the world would just be better without me The bad thoughts racing Got me pacing Through this apartment Pills and weed together the mix made me feel nautious Paranoia trip me out I'm moving with caution Im tryna find god but the devil keep calling Im tryna climb up but it's like I keep falling We live for them lil instances we was balling I hate that everyone I love I still put my all in I'm tired of just talking Also gotta live and walk it Im hurting to be honest And love don't feel the same it's kinda toxic My heart just need a break before it breaks and can't be polished I'm losing sleep by days seems like a waste we only living once And I could die tonight wonder what strain is in my last blunt The music getting sadder Cuz the mental health getting badder Guarantee she'll smile and then stab you if I had her Tryna space out Leave this planet sip drank on Saturn Still pushing even though I been bruised broke and shattered It's easy to appreciate the wins round all the Ls All the time I fell or failed turn into my team prevails I done struggled went through hell Just to make sum of myself It was cracked open Never got to come up out my shell I was gat toting nowadays I'm usually at work And smoking to erase this hurt And tryna find my human worth And not be stuck up in this cycle Make me wanna go berserk And everything just push my nerves Been getting so tired of earth But to wrap this up Lately just been leaning real heavy on the rapping stuff At least I tell my story hope you bump it while you stacking up Or use it as a crutch the next time you feel that life is tough One day it's gon be great for us