Deal With the Pain

Let me gone n say another Prayer Because he can't know God I been drowning in a ocean Where the sane float Breaking fingers I been tryna let the pain go Ride the wave Cuz we prolly in the same boat Lately I been feeling ashamed Lately I been taking the blame Feels like I'm floating away Tell me how to deal with the Pain Thought that last year Would be my last year Drinking everyday for the past year Don't know how to deal With the pain So I'm sitting in my car In the rain (Ou) feeling like God tryna test me (Ou) taking me through hell just to bless me (ou) I would pray but idk what to say Sometimes I wanna throw me away Can't believe I tried to help you I really wish I never met you I thought they loved me but they left too Ain't nobody coming to the rescue Let me gone n say another prayer Because he can't know God I been drowning in a ocean Where the sane float Breaking fingers I been tryna let the pain go Ride the wave Cuz we prolly in the same boat Lately I been feeling ashamed Lately I been taking the blame Feels like I'm floating away Tell me how to deal with the pain Thought I reached the bottom But i keep on falling Phone on DND But they steady calling Ppl tryna talk But I ain't ready tho I been going silent Like the radio I lose all my focus When I think about it I keep on waking up N that's the thing about it Try to go to sleep But I can't turn it off Life done beat me up I'm tryna dust it off I just never felt so dead N I never felt so cold I been laying in my bed I been all in my head yea Let me gone and say another Prayer Because he can't know God I been drowning in a ocean Where the sane float Breaking fingers I been tryna let the pain go Ride the wave Cuz we prolly in the same boat Lately I been feeling ashamed Lately I been taking the blame Feels like I'm floating away Tell me how to deal with the Pain