Soliloquy for Butterflies

Meet me up in heaven Up under cherry tree I got a couple questions for the Lord when we both meet Like why he made the sky so wide but me so obsolete? For now I'll hide my questions underneath soliloquies See I've been floating And I've been choking I think the leaves is finally turning a new shade of golden And so I pick them And then I go within I sing my prayers to my savior so I don't forget them. And if I let go all this faith I pray the Lord my soul to take If I should die before I wake I gave this world my everything I've been Stressed these days Gotta split my time three ways Prioritize my peace And align my faith Gotta meditate while I pray Made a mess with my mistakes And ran away from God's embrace Then fought my demons on a solo mission Then I covered the wounds Just to hide my shame And I don't got a prayer for that No cliches Or a saying for that Just got my faith And I got His grace So I guess that means I am safe And that's The confirmation I need Still got questions under my sleeve For now I will keep them safe in my heart and confess to God Under cherry tree Meet me up in heaven Up under cherry tree I got a couple questions for the Lord when we both meet Like why he made the sky so wide but me so obsolete? For now I'll hide my questions underneath soliloquies See I've been floating And I've been choking I think the leaves is finally turning a new shade of golden And so I pick them And then I go within I sing my prayers to my savior so I don't forget them. And if I let go all this faith I pray the Lord my soul to take If I should die before I wake I gave this world my everything I once heard that butterflies carry secrets when they fly Messages to make magic melt off trees and leaves and sky And I hate when they fly ahead of me. I thought they would wait for me. I thought I could fly freedom like they do. But I wasn't born with wings And wombs feels more like cacoon so I guess I'll wait until limbs grow North and south for God to give my knees enough earth to Plant prayers in See I been I been Leaves Shade oooo