the emotions i shouldn't unpack..

Baby I love you forever, forever means always I mean it, I meant it, I bent the rules crying The feeling of dying A pain in my chest with a hole in my heart Man I wish I was lying Is this even worth it? The way I'm surviving , with no satisfaction I'm losing my brain Girl I wish I was dead But I stay, with these blunts to the head F*ck I want it to end Said I'm a rapper, the f*ck was I thinking? I'm sittin' here bleeding, and barely breathing While makin' this music, how stupid am I? Thinking someone would sit here and listen to mine? Like why am I twisted in time? My mind is a prison but I did my time So why am I trapped? The feelings of failure They keep me intact The emotions I shouldn't unpack This wasn't the plan, this isn't my brand I'm usually rappin' bout drugs and some guns But that's not in demand The same basic shit every rapper can chant I'm tryna be greater than great A name that nobody can hate You and I are just people, I mean Aren't we all just the same? (Yeah) Slowly going insane? (Yeah) Like what am I doing? I'm standin' here stranded I need me a sign to get out this I'm stuck in psychosis , I cannot ignore this I need me some help, but nobody is hearing my screams I'm feelin' so hopeless Nigga pass me the lighter cause I need to smoke this I'm chasing the high cause it's how I control this I'm a wannabe artist But you just don't get it I'm risking my life , I endangered my future My dumb little dreams, of being the greatest are slowly collapsing And I'm stuck relapsing It's harder to breathe And my life is in shambles I really don't want this I wanna be normal, I wanna be human Is it all really worth it? It's ruined my brain, but that's just the game And it's swallowed me whole, I can't exit the cage I'm chugging the poison I'm tired of downin' a bottle I just wanna be sane, I just wanna be happy My love isn't somethin to borrow God damnit I'm tired of sorrow My vision is blurry , my vision is narrow And f*ck Cupid's arrow The love in my heart Has been cast into nano Maybe it's time to just give it all up Cause nobody cares, yeah nobody cares Baby I love you forever, forever means always I mean it, I meant it, I bent the rules crying The feeling of dying A pain in my chest with a hole in my heart Man I wish I was lying Is this even worth it? The way I'm surviving , with no satisfaction I'm losing my brain Girl I wish I was dead But I stay, with these blunts to the head F*ck I want it to end Said I'm a rapper, the f*ck was I thinking? I'm sittin' here bleeding, and barely breathing While makin' this music, how stupid am I? Thinking someone would sit here and listen to mine? Like why am I twisted in time? My mind is a prison but I did my time So why am I trapped? The feelings of failure They keep me intact The emotions I shouldn't unpack