Trapped

Always looking for a hand out, afraid to give a shout out Never know how it will turn out, It's best if I just hide out New places I should check out, sometimes it ends in strike out Hard to keep from burnout, save face don't be a sell out Forever I just hold on, to dreams that never fade Trapped in an illusion, from truth I've often strayed Tough times so many, I may never make the grade Ridicule and shame, I'm pierced by their shade Escape from eyes, that know not what I've paid Knowing what comes next, is nothing I would trade No questions no answers, no values to be weighed Black out comes so quick, no decision is even made Mere seconds before, the breakout doesn't delay Quick action is often needed, no need to persuade Accomplish the most, never leave chances decay Treasured reward not in focus, a goal without barricade Always looking for a hand out, afraid to give a shout out Never know how it will turn out, It's best if I just hide out New places I should check out, sometimes it ends in strike out Hard to keep from burnout, save face don't be a sell out Infinite looping in my head, no future I'm just trapped Racing to a lofty goal, my achievements always capped Hidden deep within my shell, not ever making contact Concepts clear to many, I just consider abstract Contributions that are offered, never have an impact Hallucinating hard to tell, maybe I've just snapped Adding scenes to fill a void, making my life packed With sorrow and pain so real, feeling I've been slapped All energy soon depleted, all drive entirely tapped Repeated blows eventually, result in feeling sacked Take away the clouds and mist, freedom and unwrapped Helping truth to brightly shine, allow hopefulness to invade Always looking for a hand out, afraid to give a shout out Never know how it will turn out, It's best if I just hide out New places I should check out, sometimes it ends in strike out Hard to keep from burnout, save face don't be a sell out Keep them all amused, while I plan an escape All of our heroes, don't always wear a cape Glad and lucky, I avoid a near scrape Check out all the details, view the full landscape Wisely use your talents, to accomplish a reshape Voices they won't stop, I can't pause that tape Some judging me to be, a little too risque At times so hard to accept, I just look away My deepest thoughts, on full display Could there even be some foul play? Shall I face my fears, or just run away Darkness and confusion, my most dreaded day Always looking for a hand out, afraid to give a shout out Never know how it will turn out, It's best if I just hide out New places I should check out, sometimes it ends in strike out Hard to keep from burnout, save face don't be a sell out