Selfish

Self love, I'm selfish yea I don't really care about myself, I swear Usually powder my nose with snow Where my life is going, no I don't know I'm selfish yea I don't need your prayer for my repair Don't wanna be aware, maybe I'm scared Just want a quiet place to fall asleep somewhere From Princess to Queen, seasons change for new beginnings I walked away from myself, didn't like what I was seeing Wrong turn, got lost on a dark path, life in turmoil Substance abuse, you can do the math, I turn loyal I ran away with the night life, dark side emerges This part of me has no fear, I think I like this version I lived it up to the fullest, partied like them rockstars The consequences of karma, cuffed up in cop cars I was to lost see straight, mental state on detonate It was the cost of my fate, new life I contemplate But every time I tried to leave, I seen that I was a fiend Begging on my knees for the power to wake me out this dream Straight jacket confined in my minds own twisted design Eyes dilated, foaming at the mouth, up here talking bout I'm fine Gone on cloud ten breathing green wind to cloud vision Then drown my thoughts in the Gin, wake up in new dimension Self love, I'm selfish yea I don't really care about myself, I swear Usually powder my nose with snow Where my life is going, no I don't know I'm selfish yea I don't need your prayer for my repair Don't wanna be aware, maybe I'm scared Just want a quiet place to fall asleep somewhere Self love, I'm selfish yea I don't really care about myself, I swear Usually powder my nose with snow Where my life is going, no I don't know I'm selfish yea I don't need your prayer for my repair Don't wanna be aware, maybe I'm scared Just want a quiet place to fall asleep somewhere Bye bye, I guess this is it, outer body experience I swear I'm high as the ceiling, am I delirious I'm popping pills to maintain, the habits serious Then mixed em up with some cane cause I was curious Used it to ease my pain, guess I was in to dust Pardon my lifestyle choice, the drugs was what I lust Uppers and downers to acclimate my mood swings I chase the light with the dark, this how I do things Escape to light from the dark, a temporary state Until my heart speeds up beat and body starts to shake Cold sweats so intense, I grind my teeth for weeks I find myself giving in because my spirits weak Hold on, stay strong, the withdrawal of fear is nearly gone I'm left with time to reflect on life and what went wrong It's time to focus on me, my seeds, my true love This path I've chosen is destined to heal my self love Self love, I'm selfish yea I don't really care about myself, I swear Usually powder my nose with snow Where my life is going, no I don't know I'm selfish yea I don't need your prayer for my repair Don't wanna be aware, maybe I'm scared Just want a quiet place to fall asleep somewhere Self love, I'm selfish yea I don't really care about myself, I swear Usually powder my nose with snow Where my life is going, no I don't know I'm selfish yea I don't need your prayer for my repair Don't wanna be aware, maybe I'm scared Just want a quiet place to fall asleep somewhere