Understanding

Understanding, it's all I ever wanted Nobody really knows cause my life's been always haunted All my life I was only taunted Nobody knows the spirits that I've had all up and vaulted Is that what this is about? Just my life!? Or is it about everyone else's now? Every choice that I've made Every road that I've crossed Leaves me wondering if it's all worth the cost I'll take it back to start where it all became I was just a youngin before I was all deranged We've all got our beginning and that's why we're all so ranged Hope yall will understand me after it's all been explained Came from humble beginnings, was tread on the right path I was on my journey, wasn't focused on no fads Then shit turned wrong and I wasn't bout to get stabbed Took some piece of glass and put it right up in his calf I was only seven and shit was never really the same Zoey moved away and I was who was left to blame Since then life was different cause it could have been changed If only I didn't react we wouldn't have been estranged Taking it further to a time from beyond Never did belong cause there's so many that I've wronged Wasn't until much later that this all really dawned Mistakes paved the path that I stumbled upon Mother crying 'cause the worlds came colliding She had found out that I had been the one lying Broke her heart with the secrets I was up and hiding Now I see the pain from which there's no denying Understanding, it's all I ever wanted Nobody really knows 'cause my life's been always haunted All my life I was only taunted Nobody knows the spirits that I've had all up and vaulted