Lonely/Loser

I don’t know why I feel so lonely A loser like me should be used to this Maybe it’s because even I don’t know me So I ain’t got plans but feel like shit But I still love myself from time to time When I’m separating myself from those who sing for me and sympathize I’m using all these songs to hide tonight While I’m serenading the sunrise with symphonies I synthesize Every night the moon returns, I think of reasons why I’m scared to try, I’m scared to hurt, I’m scared of leaving life behind But you don’t need to worry about me, you can live for sure without me I guess I’m not lonely, I am just alone and it’s my own fault why I feel lost at home ‘Cos I lack social skills and I’m captivated by oval pills for sleeping But I don’t wanna take ‘em cos I’m too busy adding tonal shrills to beats and I’m prone to overthink and overkill while overdriving all the sounds in my Songs and I could over-feel emotions ‘til I’m weeping I’m the loser who’d never do better than anyone else so last place And life is switching up fast paced and I’m doing worse than what my past faced At ayoko na talaga, just translate ‘cos I’m too lazy Oh, in my fan base, my biggest fan is my room’s AC ‘Cos I had the audacity to make music and use it to cope It’s the only thing I’m good at, am I good at what I’m good at? well no And I’m staring at the moon as I go ‘cos there’s paint splattered with the same pattern As her name scattered in my grey matter So why can’t I forget about Minerva? It’s like I know that I lack one whole of a half Yea, it hurts I’ve been noticing that has been holding me back, my soul has collapsed And maybe I’m just making as much noise As I can in these songs so that somebody hears me But nobody really does and I’m still waiting, still fading, celebrating my birthday yearly 'Cos I still love myself from time to time When I’m separating myself from those who sing for me and sympathize I’m using all these songs to hide tonight While I’m serenading the sunrise with symphonies I synthesize Every night the moon returns, I think of reasons why I’m scared to try, I’m scared to hurt, I’m scared of leaving life behind But you don’t need to worry about me, you can live for sure without me I guess I’m not lonely, I am just alone and it’s my own fault why I feel lost at home