Tendencies

I have a tendency to mess it all up I have a tendency to not be enough Tendencies bring me down to my knees Tendencies crush all of my hopes and dreams I have a tendency to let it all slip I have a tendency to not get a grip When will I learn to get it right I need to stand and put up a fight I have a tendency to hide it all away I have a tendency to not be okay All I really want is a way to fix myself Take all these tendencies and put 'em up on a shelf Lock 'em up just like I lock away my feelings Looking for a reason, looking for a meaning I have a tendency to push you away I have tendencies at the end of the day I have no reason to keep going on I don't know why all I do is so wrong I don't know how to stand up and be strong I don't know how I've gone on this long You think you know me, I'll tell you you don't I'll keep it all in with a knife to my throat I have a tendency to mess it all up I have a tendency to not be enough Tendencies bring me down to my knees Tendencies crush all of my hopes and dreams I have a tendency to let it all slip I have a tendency to not get a grip When will I learn to get it right I need to stand and put up a fight