Could've Been Worse

Over and over and over again I keep on wishing I didn't exist Over and over and over again I keep asking for things I can't give Over and over and over again I keep obsessing of what could've been Over and over and over again Keep on backtracking there's something I've missed Yeah Sat on the fence I wanna keep making happy songs but i just still feel sad and depressed Its at the point where I'm making my own choice to stay in the valley of death Identity found in something as fragile as family won't let it happen again Living more life has actually taught me to see the value in death As long as I'm here I've got something to give and something to capture within I've felt some the faintest of healing so its time to ask man ask it again How has you're heart been Coming to terms My heart and mind has been scattered so no wonder I fumble my words Pain's a normality so I ain't gotta prove that Im hurt My endless internal battles are better understood in reverse A bad day for me is full of regrets and fears in which I choose to avert Getting attached to the wrong things is an act this fool has rehearsed I had to learn to love myself when she took off so kudos to her My tears are have a limit so the value if them is crucial or cursed Being resurrected from my past life I'm wondering who would emerge Knowing that I'm not alone should be enough to keep me pushing upwards Could've been worse Retrospect I'm just a distant memory that's left your head And I need rest been weighed down by things left unsaid Still less regrets I'm steadily becoming more content With who I am With who I am