You're So Stuck You're Complacent

I don't wanna live in this world Anymore The pack of Marlboros sit out On the porch Glance to my left, eyes on my Feet to yelling in the car to Crying in the backseat Just roll it up a drug induced State, a hollow conversation That you can't relate To your father, to your brother To your lover, or to your Mother She will pop a pill and call it Day your child's in the back Room wanting to play It's like a fucking child trauma That I can't escape Twenty years old lying on my Fucking face Yelling at the sky You said hold your breath You said hold your breath When I left home I should've Fucking died Sleeping with the dead in the Middle of the night Under a roof of some house That isn't mine Next to the woods feeling lost In time Took four years just to realize That the blood inside my body Never felt like mine Generation's drug abuse and Family betrayal Your hidden little secrets Caused your skin to turn pale Just give me a minute to collect My thoughts All the lies your told me All the shit I bought I bet you didn't see this coming Twenty years down the road You'd have nothing And I don't even blame you Cause I felt the heart ache I saw The pain too The monsters in my closet have Caused it to come out tonight A manic episode will explode And gravitate to life While you were right here but So far away The explosions in the sky gave Light to the day But you just stood right there Staring off into space I was seven years old feeling Stuck in place And now i'm twenty years old kinda feeling The Same I guess it runs in the family I guess i'm losing my way I guess