Reckless

I wish I could think a different way And scare off the thoughts that seize my brain But there is a freedom I now know Unrivaled attention is letting go I am reckless I am mean But I'm a believer In the love I feel I wish I could have a different night Than a one where I say things I don't like But I've learned that what I say just doesn't even matter Cause I'll still cast myself as the inevitable disaster I am reckless I am mean But I'm a believer In the love I feel I wish I could think of better words Cause I never feel smarter than I seem To believe I can change just seems absurd Guess I better get used to being me I am reckless I am mean But I'm a believer In the love I feel