Chameleon

Used to be open If I felt it wrote it Pen on paper words were flowing I maintained a focus Even though then I was only floating Sorry if you're feeling ghosted Thought that I could sail away Escape no one would notice With vision based on motion Forgive me for how I'm coping Thought I'd only need a moment But esteem was tied to what was stolen CPTSD no cap and stole quit No perceiving me No cap I'm frozen Miss my friends they've been devoted No minding me devoid of my emotion Ask me how it's going F*ck my voice is broken Miss Pacific drowning in my ocean No specifics when I haven't spoken I couldn't say How I been feeling these days Trying to change Feel stuck this way I think I like it better when I hide away I think I like it better better better better better Pour the bottles in the sewer She's had enough I want you to say it Sorry doesn't mean a thing to me If you won't even be here with me Changes and all The hours bring us far from each other So quick to dispose of the letters Now you're looking for a body just for the summer Got me wondering if you been like that Glad I had never even cashed that check You ought to know who really got your back