Maya

You picked me up from the halfway house At my first rehab on the Fourth of July And we got high What a surprise trying to hide my eyes That guy you were with if I remember right Caught a felony when we left that night A B and E or the heroin At the time it didn't mean much to me I woke up in a parking lot Some months later and I called you up You said what's the deal this time I said crystal meth and I heard you smile So we sat on the porch And we smoked cigarettes You held my hand I don't know if I cried But I Yeah I cried today Cause Maya all the things I think you wanted for me all along Everything yeah every one's come true I've been clean since twenty sixteen I've made peace with all the little things And I'm a lot farther from death than I was then If there's a god up in heaven and he lets me in If I go first and there's a god and he lets me in The first thing I'll do is tell him about you Well I remember you had a son And I cannot recall his name And I know you left for California And I know you could not stay I drove through Ferguson just yesterday To try and find your place I got to the railroad tracks and I closed my eyes And I almost saw your face On the last night of that last life We used each other for a pastime And I'm sorry I didn't realize then Your heart was heavy just like mine Maya all the things I think you wanted for me all along Everything yeah every one's come true I've been clean since twenty sixteen I've made peace with all the little things And I'm a lot farther from death than I was then If there's a god up in heaven and he lets me in If I go first and there's a god and he lets me in The first thing I'll do is tell him about you What's your life like now How'd your son turn out Are you married Would you mind if I stop by I'm still playing that same guitar from that morning And those same boots are sitting by my bed Yeah but all the storms are quiet in my head I hope all the storms are quiet in your Maya all the things I think you wanted for me all along Everything yeah every one's come true I've been clean since twenty sixteen I've made peace with all the little things And I'm a lot farther from death than I was then If there's a god up in heaven and he lets me in If I go first and there's a god and he lets me in Yeah if I go first and there's a god and he lets me in The first thing I'll do Is tell him about you