Are you sure?

Are you even sure That you're okay Baby I can't ensure That I believe you At this current state in time I love you deeper than velvety sweet red wine Why can't you talk to me I've had enough of this Back and forth Till you steal me right back With a kiss Push me away Pull me back in I don't understand Why I'm sipping gin At this moment in time I'm just in pain Feeling all the crevices in my brain Rotting away Going insane I gotta get myself out of this place In my mind I rewind Every damn day Why did I just say That cause I knew it would hurt her. Why did I burn her To the ground I hear her heart pound I've had enough of the life I've been living Been sinning Not winning This battle No tattle But let me tell you the tale I was all the blood And you were the holy grail All of my friends Told me that I should leave you But I never listened Just to appease you But I never could And never will I just blinded myself From the fact That I could never deal With you forever You have to go Cause I can't get myself To even though I know it's broken I'm hoping We fix it My friends never checking on me Cause I'm in this They thinking you got me I got me At this point Cause you never ever Loved me And this coin Ain't worth nothing I'm running From my feelings My demons They creeping up on me I'm dealing Depression