Never feel better, never felt worse

Never feel better Never felt worse I don't think You really know how love works Saying how You really don't think love hurts I don't think You really know how much hurt Never felt so lonely In my damn life Never felt so lonely Out of damn spite Sliding in your skin On a cold night But it hits you Deeper in the daylight I really don't think that you can understand Should of ran I just wanna feel like I am wanted damn, Seen the same memory about a hundred times Still can't believe it was all lies I really don't get it I don't get mad But I am? Oh, I feel bad But I'm getting better At holding people accountable Even though it's not my job I feel it's invaluable Or maybe I feel like I don't want them to get away Maybe I feel like I don't even know what to say Maybe I feel like I ain't feeling anything, But it doesn't even Matter cause At the end of the... Feeling like no-one really loves me Feeling like no-one really cares Feeling like no-one's up above me Feeling ice cold from the stares Never been one to hold a grudge see I just tend to stick to my affairs Remember that day you wouldn't judge me Now I'm all alone crying tears When in actual fact I've never been seen Never really me like a green screen Cause on the day I showed you who I really am You showed me how you really didn't give a damn I don't know why I stuck by your side For so long I don't know why it feels so wrong To write songs I don't know why Every time I pick up a pen I see your face & then I just, End up writing again I don't get it Never could dead it Only thing I know Is you never once said it Never once felt Like I was anything Other than a friend & now I know That I'll never End up writing again About us Never was us I just saw your photo Now My stomach's all mush I just saw your photo Now My stomach won't trust I've been feeling sick For seventeen days I don't know what else to say I don't know Why I'm so scared I don't know What I ever did To have you in my head I don't know Who I am I don't know where to go What to do Who to call